A Spiritual Transformation:

My Own “Cloud of Unknowing”

 

 

The power of thought is very important.   The power of thought

moves consciousness and we are affected by the collective unknown.   I know this

because as a genuine mystic seer and visionary to the mystic heart in the Christ, we

are in the life of prayer and silence, which takes some listening to the heart and some know-how

in maintaining the journey.  And it doesn’t come easily, I assure you.  

So, one must begin now to cultivate the inner light.  One needs a qualified teacher.

It took me 28 years just to stop and ask the question? Where is this life in God leading me too?

Thus, the spiritual life in God begins to unfold the value of unity consciousness that we

come to a place of discovery and understanding.

A Personal Transformation

 

I acknowledge the fact that my prayer life was nowhere to be found,

and I knew my best communication skills in talking with God, is through my own spirit.

And I believe, there are certain values and techniques, like yoga, breathe technique in 

assisting us to clear all debris through breath control,and special

exercises, as in, meditation like Zen, or TM, clearing out  old psychic debris,

both on the mental level as well as that which is attached to the physical level too!

Thus, the spiritual life in God begins to unfold the value of unity

consciousness that we come to a place of

discovery and understanding.

The power of thought will be recognized as one is listening to

the sounds (in prayer), we can hear the silent voice of God so that we

can  also hear the silent invitation as well within. Moreover if we are not prepared then,

how can we  hear or listen? We need to learn how to listen.   Because the “monkey mind” is

sure to keep his hand in the cookie jar, will be glad to stay around

or to go up and down the tree, back and forth. 

That’s the nature of ego/mind.

 

 

I was very fortunate at the time of my birth, when listening to the natural flow

of consciousness was part of my being [in process] naturally to unfold.

I recall the time of being in deciding to volunteer and when to come into this world and

in choosing my parents for the right time of being birthed, etc. Thus, the level of consciousness was

readily accessible to my state of intuition and state of being.

Immediately, I was able to communicate and understand the

value of consciousness.   And this is why I am able to understand and identify the karmic

and dharmic lessons. I was attracted to the natural world that makes it easier for me

to communicate with the natural kingdom of the elemental world of the animal and the natural

world i.e. the stars and moon, the sun, the elemental worlds of the Earth's

water people, tree people, and the winged people, etc.    As a star person, I understand

the value of what Indigo really means, and as a crystal adult, see this in others easily,

whether human or not.    I have known animal who are mystics and

healers in their own right, having come to assist in the karmic transition of

the world that is their dharmic duty to do so, as

it is for each of us.

 

 

We each have a responsibility to that same level of awareness and that same level of

consciousness that all sentient beings understand and communicate with and share. 

This is how we can understand one another between species. Therefore, as a light healer,

see the natural kingdom and as a direct medium/ mystic, and through the agency of

cosmic consciousness, I gravitate towards that which represents an unfoldment of the

complete self, towards dynamic interior spirituality, the One in the Many.

As I grew into adolescence I realize that my family had a natural and

spiritualistic pathway towards Curanderismo. My grandmother's relatives were

shamans and medicine people/healers. This brought forth for me a hidden memory I was able to

recognize and gravitate towards. My spirit, visionary insight and identity in natural  

shamanism came with a slight difference to the spiritual value than my great aunt's. This included

the cosmology of the natural world of spirits, combined with the physical world of the plant

kingdom that speaks to their various communities, which I felt in my early

teens and young adulthood was being instructed by the tradition of the social

construct I was living in to move away from. Moreover, my search of a tradition

was strong, but this took many years to become clarified in my own continuity

of spirit unlike that of a traditional curandero (healer).

 

 

 

 

              The Spiritual Retrieval             

 

For years I knew that my family was involved in shamanism and felt that I was

involved with the religion unable to hold up truth that spoke to cosmic and spiritual

knowledge, I knew and have felt was not mine. Over the years I had to integrate this by

proxy, if you will.  I was living a life of brokenness and living from the outer circle of the spirit,

at the same time attempting to honor my own spirit, a spirit that was not fully identified.

The ancestral transmission of spiritual knowledge resides within our

current consciousness within our psyche as a multigenerational interconnection that

overlaps generation after generation. Each of us is carrying within our DNA, a physical and spiritual

history that is an inner reflection of our own revelatory text, as it were. In her book,

Prayer and Quest for Healing; Barbara Fiand, quotes, Thich Nhat Hanh, which speaks to

this, alludes to the value of interconnectedness, saying...

 

 

 

 

We are rooted in each other, Hanh tells us. Without each other we are like

‘hungry ghosts’ hurting and longing to be connected to the human family to which we belong.

We are the continuation of our parents who transmitted themselves to us.

They really had nothing else to give but themselves and their past. If they were

unable to heal their past, they too have remained unsealed and are

looking for to us for reconciliation. We are what we have received and cultivated.

To reconcile with their parents or ancestors is to reconcile

ultimately with ourselves (78).

When I was 16, we were burying my shaman aunt, but one thing that I

realized at the cemetery was that she was standing right next to her casket!

Mentally, I asked her, why she hadn't connected with me in

this life to teach me the ways of the medicine man, (Curanderismo)?

She replied, saying, “I wasn't meant to teach you the ways, you are already a teacher!

You are meant to teach not like I had done as in the tradition, but in the

way of the New World, your world that will need you”! At the time

I didn’t understand that. So, I just lift it alone. For years since then, I felt left out

of a traditional doorway, and felt very hurt. I didn't realize what she meant by

what she said to me! By "being a teacher"?

 

 

 

 

But, as the years came by, I was to meet up with many Indigenous healer, who would

open this door, and also to protect me from death on several occasions.

At the age of 22, I was led to meet traditional Native American elders from, Thomas Banyacya,

(Hopi), Leonard Crow Dog, (Lakota Sioux) both medicine men. The traditional elder Bertha Cobb and flame keepers 

of the Aztec Nation from Mexico, even asked me to carry the traditional flame, that an elder would carry.

I declined, as this was a powerful responsibility and felt I was not ready to receive or hold on to.  

I have had the privileged to be blessed by these Spiritual leaders that have opened the

door for my journey. This gave been nourishment in support of my

path was to be a solitary one. Eventually I would leave this tradition to follow the

quest of silent heart to the cosmic Christ. What did my

spirit and heart speak of in the journey?

Over the years in dialogue with the spirit I ensued, the sacred

 being of light that was revealed would take a number of years to be fully actualized.

I realize that the journey is a personal and collective one that involves consciousness

revealing the sacred fire in the heart of the, I am presence, throughout all traditions that

fulfills the spiritual ways.  And for me in Christ, there is a redemptive value that speaks of a

wounded path that leads to the hoop of life that fills in the sacred ways,

and prayerful life to heal mother earth.

 

 

 

Br. Ed

 

 

 

The Journey Towards  Enlightenment

 

THE GARDEN and THE FORGOTTEN © 

Brother Edward

St. Francis of Assisi was a brother to all sentient beings. 

And in his life he gave everything away that he owned, including his fathers most

valuable possessions.   Likewise, this journey calls us to finally give up some precious part that

we claim as our own.  But, what is it that we should give up and when?   As a child I became intentionally

aware of the inner heart and outer expression of life.   There was a sudden stillness in the garden and

I felt at peace and at one with nature. A debate within ensued.  Who was this God person I heard

about others speak of?   And why was God interested in this three year old boy?   

I began to realize that a dialogue with the “inner self”

had begun to happen.

 

 

 

The garden was opening to Heaven.

The garden of my home was the doorway that opened up lots of God.  

I learned to see the love of God and trust the welcoming presence through first hand

experience of what “yes” meant.  The knowing within my own consciousness and psyche

brought me a sense of reciprocity to knowing the love of God at a very young age. 

That love was God in action within and

beyond the garden. 

 

 

 

 

 Looking back in time when I was four I had a dream, and in the

dream, a monk came to speak with me. I had asked this monk who he  was,

and the monk said, “Go to the hallway, and look at the picture that is there, then ask your mom,

and she’ll tell you my name!” When I woke up, I ran to my mom, asking her, who was that man on the wall?    

He came too me, saying, “You’re going to be like me, a monk”!    My mom stopped

and looked at me in an odd way, and said in Spanish,  “He told you that!?” 

 

 

Like Milton Erickson, the psychiatrist and mystic in his

own right and with many stays in the hospital, I suffered from various illnesses. 

A seizure disorder, called Petit Mal epilepsy; dysentery, ear infections, high fevers.

These petite mal (epileptic) seizures and dehydration that almost killed me.   

I had an intuition that I would be leaving this life early.  The Heavens began to open

up in preparation in welcoming me back, as it were.   In the hospital I quickly went into a near

death experience (NDE), where I would learn the first lesson to attachment and abandonment.  I was

dying and letting go of all I knew, seeing how family would be living out their life before deciding to let go of this body.

 

 

 Even though I was in a coma, the unconscious body saw and heard

everything that was going on and I knew that I was fine with it (dying). Then the Doctor used a

match and placed the flame near his eye lid, to test the neurological signs for reaction to life.

There was no response; the Dr. then, shoved a big needle into and beneath his big toenail, with no response coming rom me.

I was dying, and my nurse said, “He just told me the other day that he was going to die”, then, the nurse turned to the doctor

and asked him, “Dr. is he going to die?” He retorted by saying, “I’ll give him 50/50 chance of survival if he makes the night.

 

 

It was early morning, and life began to fill the room.

"Oh, this is not Heaven!  Lord, but you promised!"   I began to feel this core of life

begin to stir within, but deeply depressed.    But, what was calling would follow me the rest of

my life.    There was an intimacy of knowing the peace of what that love of God meant to

me and I quickly came to know once again, first hand. I realized through the

experience, that there is no death in Christ.

 

 

Now, after this experience I realized that I was not going to go

back home to the place where it came from that I recognized as heaven. And after

my near death experience as a child knew the inner value of consciousness that gave me an inner

awareness and understanding life after death. Moreover, as I grew to develop in the coming

years I began to question the Roman Catholic Church authority of Scripture knowledge for

various reasons and it seemed as though it wasn’t for me. Consequently this spiritual

love was not the same, as that authority guideline, as many of us know today, and didn't mirror the

heart of the matter, the inner spiritual world that which really counts. I think this

becomes a theological question for each of us in coming to a balance and

integrity of the spiritual within and throughout our particular world that we have become a

customer to in the struggle and the journey.

 

 

Well, after many years of abuse my parents decided to pull me out of

Catholic school all together, because they were so abusive. Well, my family left the

ghetto of South Central Los Angeles when he was nine, and I didn’t start

school again until I was eleven. I knew I was experiencing a deep spiritual pull, but

couldn’t define it, but it was familiar to me in a general way. But, interestingly enough found myself

deliberately wanting to forget this near death experience at age six.

As a child of nine, I began to think in earthly terms and started to get use to the idea that

I was to stay and live in this life, although, I didn’t really want to.

Well, I knew I had to move on, so to speak.

 

 

 

 

"Many who are to come to you will need you as a healer in a different way,

it won’t be like I did, but it would come in your own way”.

The person who influenced me the most from his adolescence,

it would definitely be my grandmother and her sister, by Tia (aunt) Jesusita Sanchez, both

perked my interest in shamanism and healing. In addition, my grandmother and I

have a secret, that to this day have not told family about, regarding our UFO experiences.

 

My grandmother would take me outside to look up to see the UFO visiting our neighborhood straight above

us in Los Angeles. I remember the time when I was five years old, but the UFOs couldn't stay as they were being

trailed by the US Air Force directly behind. But the Air Force jets could not keep up with them, as the UFO

sped away and as quickly as speed of sound, maybe even faster!

 

 

On the other hand, as I have written previously, never had a chance to

physically meet my grandmother's sister, the shaman medicine woman. But circumstances were such that

we would never meet in the physical, but I would meet her ethereal body at the cemetery.   

As I grew into my adolescence, I met a Hopi who I worked with during a

summer break from school. It brought back a memory of connecting

with star people. I continued to have UFO experiences throughout my adolescent years.

Even to the point of having a visitation in my room one summer evening.  

 

 

My memories began to increase as I was reaching my adolescent years which

caused some confusion, because at this point in my life when I was 14 I forgot my near-death

experience. I was afraid to tell anyone about these experiences, so I just kept them to

myself and my guide Natalie. I continued this process in the spiritual journey and

began to shift more to the New Age direction, but that took me to another plateau to reach

the shores of the Guru who was waiting for me to show. I felt my spirituality

was truly a universal dimension in consciousness and is truly Catholic in his mind, Hindu in his words,

and Buddhist in his heart. And for me causing no conflict whatsoever and the journey would continue to be a continuity

of love and compassion for all, and the I would grow into more of the spiritual nature

and expand my consciousness more as the years would come.

 

 

 

My consciousness began to expand so much that I begin to have memory

recall as I began hearing Sanskrit words coming to me frequently, not realizing that these

phrases were embedded in my consciousness and my soul imprint from previous lifetimes

recalling lifetimes as a Sanskrit scholar and enlightened Yogi. I met SatGuru Sant Keshavadas in1986, the

Swami from India and chief priest from the Temple of Cosmic Religion, a Hindu Temple

(Los Angeles), based in Bangalore and Rishikesh, India. His teachings were not as one would think

on teaching Vedanta, but was based on his own mystical experiences and music on [Advaitic] consciousness

(non-dualism and communion directly with God).

 

 

SadGuru Sant Keshavadas

 

 

This really called to my heart and spirit. My spiritual journey seemed to be going somewhere,

but still was in wonder as to the direction it was to take. I felt I was on my way on becoming a

 real Hindu monk; a sannyasin, a student brahmachari (celibate) under the guidance of Sant Keshavadas.

After four years being connected to the life and living hard work for a year with the temple, I began to realize

that this was not the way, but was another part of the story to the journey. Living the Temple life was very

 trying time. Although, I was very fortunate to meet many sages and saints in the Hindu tradition, even traveling

to many sacred places in India, I knew it was time to leave and continue my journey elsewhere. Over many years,

 now living and being a brahmachari; andcurrently a malabar catholic monk, that the mystical experiences continue to

 happen to the extent of bridging clarity of mind and spirit.

 

 

 

And part of this continuation of clarity recall the opportunity I had to locating a Tibetan yogi in the Santa Cruz Mountain

asking for his guidance as to why these particular Tibetan words were coming to me over the years.  The two words were, 'Yeshe Gompa', I would frequently hear for a number of years coming from within. After having met Rimpoche Thurchin, he explained to me what these Tibetan words meant: Yesha is the formless and Gompa, is the form. So, therefore, if you are hearing that means that you aren't this or that form that appears to be within the form, you are more that, it is the formless that you are. Subsequently, you have reached a continuity and the definition of what constitutes a “the formless primordial soul within form”.  

 

 

                                                                                 Jai Sai Ram

 

                                                                               

 

 

 

The Nature Of The Physiology

 

 

The nature of the physiology is a mirror of cosmic intelligence, reflecting infinite value

 of knowledge at the level of self referral consciousness; reflecting pure knowledge

of cosmic intelligence, on the level of the finite reality down to the minute detail within

the physiology of the DNA, where all life is replicated and unfolded.

 

Through this process consciousness sequentially moves, listens, directs, and interacts,

unfolding towards fulfilling the relationship with itself in all areas of life.   Thus, we can experience

 and see the true nature of being in the world; unfolding  the unbounded potential of consciousness

sequentially within the physiology. This is the natural expression of self creativity at the level of intelligence.

 

The physiology is experienced as a state of dynamic

interaction of the self, which flows into states that are natural to itself.  The inner dynamic

 relationship reveals the quality of self that spontaneously moves in a direction towards awakening

evolution and  enlightenment."The value of this process is the true nature of  unbounded awareness

and organizing power that can be experienced and witnessed within the physiology  and reflected from

 the state of pure consciousness."Therefore the self referral consciousness unfolds a process of knowledge,

which occurs at the level where nature can be seen unfoldingdynamics,where this new nature can be seen

unfolding the dynamics of  Vedanta.  

 

 

Moreover this level of consciousnessnaturally wishes to respond, interact, and, according

to its own reality, synchronize to the absolute pure consciousness on the level of the microcosmic

and macrocosmic.This is the basis of knowing the reality that transcends  nature, as it reveals the

knowledge of nature.This manifests sequentially harmonious, finite action on the level of the physiology

which can be seen at thelevel of the unfolding DNA collapsing into its fullness of the sound that reverberates

wholeness  within the silence.This truth, and pure knowledge of the self, can be  understood at the level

of one's gross and subtlesound, reverberating wholeness and transformation of the unmanifest nature towards

the manifest value of experience in the physical world at the level of theDNA.  The question is how do we

enliven this value  of nature that's within our own absolute readily available to experience at the relative level

bliss consciousness, readily available to experience at the relative level.

 

 

 

 

                       

                 Jai Guru Deva Edward Del Arroyo - Direct Medium & Healer - For 90 minute Consultation 

                                 Br. Edward